Describe yourself.
Handle (name): Shenanigans, or Shanny. I occasionally answer to “hey you.”
Age: 33
submissive/slave: always submissive, sometimes slave..
24/7 / weekend, etc., time frame: currently 24/7
Geographic area: Anchorage, Alaska
Q: What drew you to bdsm?
A: Good question. I feel sometimes like a moth drawn to flames.
I’ve been involved in this my whole adult life, I really couldn’t say what “drew” me to it, since its so much a part of who I am, and who I’ve always been. The amount or relief I felt when I first found out there were other people like me in this world was indescribable.
Q: Do you feel you were born to serve and please a Master? If not, why do you serve and please a Master?
A: No, I don’t. Not specifically, at any rate. I do feel that one of my greatest talents is putting smiles on peoples faces and making others happy, but I don’t limit that to just a Master, everyone deserves a smile and a laugh. When it comes to serving and pleasing a dominant, it gets me off and makes me feel good. It gets him off and makes him feel good. I’m all for feeling good and having fun, so it suits me quite well.
Q: How did you know you needed the pain?
A: My earliest memory is stabbing myself with a pencil at the age of two just to see what it felt like. When I was 9 I cut my finger with a piece of glass. I liked it. The first time was accidental, the other 8 times were deliberate. I have to admit, though, that growing up I really did struggle with my masochism; it made me feel like a freak, I didn’t want to be a freak. Eventually I came to terms with my freakishness and embraced it. Long live the freaks!!
Q: Are there other qualities, such as fear and being naughty that you need as well? Please label the qualities you need.
A: I like fear. I like the unexpected. I like surprises. I like challenges. I like having my buttons pushed. I like high quality sex. I like laughter. I like having fun. I like affection. I like having my ass kicked, and then cuddled afterwards. I like being valued and appreciated as well as degraded and smacked around. The mind is the biggest erogenous zone, and I like someone who makes me think deep thoughts as well as dirty thoughts.
Q: Are you currently owned?
A: This is a hard one for me to answer, actually. I’m really quite commitment-hobic. I’ve been sitting here trying to answer this for the past 5 minutes, and the man is just sitting there laughing at me. Yes, I’m owned, and damned if it just keeps freaking me out. I like to pretend its just “loanership” for my own peace of mind sometimes. Shhh, don’t tell him I said that.
Q: How many Masters have you had?
A: I’ve been in two long-term D/s relationships, but I’ve played with a lot of dominants. My current relationship makes my third attempt. I don’t dare say that “third time’s the charm,” but I do dare say that I’m interested to see what happens next.
Q: Did knowing how to please Master come naturally to you or were you taught or was it something you figured out?
A: Well, since each man is different, pleasing each one is different. I’d say there’s a lot of on-the-job training involved with every person I’ve ever played with. There are a few things that hold true for most though. Most guys like a good blow job, and an ass to whack, for example. Can’t go wrong with that_wink
Q: Are there times when you are required to do an act and you have the thought “i can’t”? If so, what do you do?
A: I do it anyway, after internally arguing with myself back and forth about it. I like pushing my own limits. I don’t like the words “I can’t.” I don’t like self-limitations. Nothing is impossible if I set my mind to it.
Q: Do you crave or like or dislike being restrained and bound in bondage?
A: I like it. Sometimes I crave it. Sometimes I crave playing without it. I find great comfort in bondage. The inescapable provides security, and takes the choice out of my hands, and allows me the luxury of laying the blame elsewhere. It’s not my fault, if I can’t escape. I’m in pain, and it’s the ties binding me keeping me in pain. I can struggle against them to distract me, or let go and let the bondage cradle and hold me. There is an interesting and very humiliating thing about playing without bondage, because then I have no one to blame but myself. Someone is hurting me, and I could stop them simply by walking away, but I don’t, I surrender, because I want them to hurt me, and I let them do it, blow by blow, driving home that point.
Q: Would you please share you’re most memorable experience in bondage and why you consider it “most memorable”?
A: A few years ago I was at a play party with my ex. (of course, he wasn’t my ex at the time.) Someone asked us to do a demonstration of some shibari rope work, which was one of his particular fortes. I had invited along a girlfriend of mine, who was fairly vanilla, as my guest. He tied me up in a lovely rope corset, leaving my limbs free to move about all I wanted. So there I stood, artfully done up in rope. She was agog over it, just loved the look of it, and asked if he’d truss her up as well. He did. I then grabbed a padlock, and latch her rope to mine, and proceeded to drag her about the party from room to room, stuck at the hip like bondage Siamese twins. It was a riot. She was gasping, as the rope ran up her crotch, and begging me to slow down and stop. I was laughing so hard. We had the entire party in stitches by the time I found the key and unlocked us. I still laugh about it to this day, which is probably what makes it so memorable.
Q: Are you a slave or submissive? If you are a slave, is it 24/7? Was it always this way? (Were you a submissive first for a length of time or did you just accept the choice of slave from the start)
A: I identify more as a submissive than as a slave. I’m a stubborn, independent, self-sufficient sort of gal, who doesn’t need someone to take care of me, I just like it. I’ve pretty much always been this way. Although, anything said with the right tone of voice by the right person, will have me melting into a pool of sycophantic goo saying things like “yes, Master, whatever you say, Master.”
Q: What is the difference between a slave 24/7 and a submissive to you?
A: A slave to me is someone who’s life is micromanaged by their Master. That would just annoy me. I am fully capable of making my own decisions. A submissive to me, is someone who pleases by choice. A slave is fully owned, with rules and restrictions and defined consequences, either good or bad. A slave requires more commitment, and I prefer a more casual, less defined commitment.
Q: Are you one of many slaves? Are you the head of the house slave? and how do you feel about situation? Are you poly also? or does this just not concern or bother you?
A: I’ve never been one of many, or in a poly relationship. I’ve been in open relationships, but never a poly one. I don’t think I’d want to. I do enjoy playing with other women, but not to the extent that I’d like to invite any into my relationship. I’m just not that social, I guess.
Q: Define a fuck toy slave and what is the difference between her and you.
A: a fuck toy is just that: a toy for fucking. A fuck toy isn’t by definition a masochist. I enjoy being a fuck toy, but I like my sex life to have more dimension than that.
Q: Does your total passion for pleasing Master get you past any concerns about other women?
A: I pride myself on giving 110% of myself to every relationship, and that’s never been a concern of mine. I’m not so self-conscious or lacking in self-esteem that I worry about other women. Let’s not forget that I like women, too. I enjoy having a gal over for fun and games every now and then with my partner, and there’s never been any sort of emotional threat felt on my behalf.
Q: Was your health record checked first? Do you have any concerns about health or do you just leave it to Master to worry about?
A: I take my well-being into my own hands. Who I am, and how healthy I am is my own responsibility, no one else’s. I have only myself to blame if I pig out on buffets on vacation and gain 5 lbs, for example. I keep on top of that. I’m kind of a health nut, anyway. I do go to the doc for regular checkups, as well, naturally.
Q: favorite task?
A: Oh, laundry, if we’re talking domestic tasks. I’m a self-proclaimed laundry nazi. I even do hospital corners on bed sheets. I’ve had people laugh, looking at how organized my underwear drawer is, since all my bras and thongs are organized by color from back to front, darkest to lightest.
Q: hardest task/demand you did?
A: Getting committed. And no, I don’t mean to a mental institution. He says I get downright twitchy over the very thought of a relationship. Yeah, I probably do. I’ve woken up with night sweats having nightmares about it. I’m bad, huh? But hey, I’m facing my fears head-on, go me!
Q: do you work and have a life or are you 100% taken care of and told what to do all day?
A: I have a life! My life consists of being 100% taken care of and being told what to do… lol. Just joking. Actually I’m presently job hunting. I took the past 3 months out of my career to do a lot of fishing and hiking and camping, etc. He says my full-time job is being his slut. He can keep saying that, but until I get a job again, I won’t rest easy. Actually, I’m thinking of enrolling in some classes this fall as well. All my friends and family seem to think that’s a grand idea.
Q: Describe an average day:
A: My average day when I’m in town lately: I wake up at 7ish. I get dressed, throw on some makeup, catch a ride to the coffee shack down the road while he’s heading off to work, then walk back home, surf the net, apply for a couple jobs, eat breakfast. He comes home for lunch. We have a noon quickie. He drops me off at the gym, with my bicycle. I work out for an hour, then bike the 6.5 miles back home again. I take a shower, cruise the internet more, make some phone calls, maybe have a job interview, pull out something from the freezer for dinner, watch a movie, or busy myself doing something. I slip into something sexy by the time he comes home, we cook dinner, curl up on the couch and unwind, and then its time for beatings and boinkings! (my favorite part of the day) Eventually, exhausted, striped, sporting a new bruise or two or ten, we crawl into bed and sleep deep.
Q: Do you have interests and hobbies and/or a job or is your day
spent pleasing Master?
A: By trade I’m a paralegal. I have a lot of hobbies, from mountain climbing, to hiking, to playing piano, to gardening, to going to the theatre, etc. I’m eclectic.
Q: Did you get sent to school to learn how to do a manicure/massage or any other pleasure skills?
A: Nope, just a lot of on-the-job training, so to speak. Plus, getting smacked if I get it wrong is a good motivator for learning. So is getting smacked if I get it right. Hell, just smack me.
Q: Do you and/or are you allowed to go clubbing/nightlife, out on your own, girl’s night out, etc.?
A: Yes. I wouldn’t commit myself to a relationship where I wasn’t entitled to have my own time. I think everyone needs that, dominant, submissive, vanilla, whomever. Everyone needs time away from each other every now and then, it’s healthy. My favorite nighttime activity is going to sing karaoke with some friends. (yes, I’m just that big of a dork.) I love singing, and we tend to go once a week. He popped in last time and surprised me. I was quite pleased he showed up, though, since he’d never heard me sing before.
Q: Think of a scene you grew from experiencing.
Describe that session, please?
A: I think I grow from every scene, but honestly the one that sticks in my mind the most was the one and only time I got topped by a woman. It was also the 2nd and last time I ever used a safeword to end a scene. It was going horribly wrong. I was just getting angrier and angrier, and just wanted to smack the gal. It was indeed a learning experience, though. I learned I don’t like being topped by women. I might be bisexual, but when it comes to BDSM, I’m pretty heterosexual; I only like being dommed by men. I like women to be my equal. I’m of the opinion, though, that I’ll try anything at least once. How was I to know whether or not I’d like it until I experienced it? It could have been the best thing since FDR’s new deal, for all I knew.
Q: Is getting permanent body jewelry an idea you entertain? Or is it something your Master wishes? Is that something you would do if He told you to or do you both need to want it?
A: First of all, there’s no such thing as “permanent” body jewelry, all holes will close up, given enough time. I’ve had my nipples pierced twice; the first time I did it was 6 years ago, when I was single. My ex hated them, so he removed them. I had them done again last summer, at the spontaneous order of a dominant I was visiting in Chicago. Thankfully everyone seems to like them this time around, because I’d fight tooth and nail to keep them, I love them. I have one tattoo, which I got 4 years ago when I was in a relationship. It was something I wanted, not something he initially wanted me to have. I had to beg and plead with him to finally get his consent to get it done, and thankfully he liked it very much when it was finished. I love my one and only tattoo, it has great personal significance to me. If, in the future, the man I am/will be involved with wanted me to get any body jewelry, I’d have no problems with that. A tattoo or brand, I’d be willing to consider, depending on the design and placement.
Q: i have never had a tattoo or piercing because I have felt my body belongs to Master. None of my Masters have desired it or done it. Your thoughts?
A: My argument is this: my body might belong to him, but doesn’t he want me to be happy? And if the only thing that will make me happy is a tattoo, then how could he possibly deny me it? (that’s the argument that one me my tattoo. Either that or he was just tired of hearing me beg for it.)
Q: i’ve noticed that in posts and e-mails submissive’s capitalize “Master”. your thoughts?
A: Most christians capitalize god. Coincidence? It’s a sign of respect. Titles are capitalized. It’s grammatically correct, when used in that context.
Q: and your favorite toy is (only one)?
A: a little piece of cylindrical rubber, about two feet long, called a liquid cane. It’s insidious. Second to that would be a single-tail.
Q: favorite toy set up while masturbating?
A: I rarely use anything other than my hands. Batteries tend to corrode in my vibrators from lack of use. My hands do far better than any vibrator I’ve ever owned.
Q: What if your Master did not find you attractive or did not want you sexually. Would you be happy serving him as he wished, serving his sadistic needs only?
A: Hell no. I wouldn’t date anyone who wasn’t sexually attracted to me, anyway. I have a very high sex drive. I could, feasibly, play with someone without it involving sex, but only in a casual situation. I’d still need a good fuck.
Q: How did you become knowledgeable regarding the physiology of what happens in different bdsm play?
A: I like to know why things work the way they do, regardless of the subject. I’m always full of questions. For example, why does spanking turn people on? The biological truth is that spanks stimulate blood flow to the genitals, and release endorphins, which are a natural opiate. If there’s something I want to know, I research the answer, and in researching generally run across several more questions I want the answers to. I’m always studying one thing or another. When someone poses a serious question, I tend to not answer it unless I can compose an intelligent, accurate response.
Q: i know subs aren’t supposed to set up scenes, but if you could, what play would hit all the right buttons for you, what would float your boat?
Example: soaking cat of nine tails in Tabasco, 30 lashes followed by wash off with lemon juice.
A: Well, first of all, I really get off on surprises, so knowing in advance what’s going to happen would be somewhat of a killjoy. So, for the sake of argument, let us suppose that I could script a scene, and then wipe my memory fully of it, in order to regain the element of surprise. Lately I’ve been craving a good old fashioned interrogation scene, with impossible questions I could never answer, something that’ll inspire fear, begging, tears, humiliation, harsh words, strangling, bites, slaps, a lot of man-handling, and laughter at the end. Toss in some seriously heavy impact play, and we’ll call it good. Oh, plus I don’t want to sit straight for at least a week or two afterwards. There’s something so nice about bruises and welts as souvenirs, to remind me for hours and days what transpired, and who did it, and why, to keep that person constantly on my mind. Pure deliciousness.
Q: once one just gives up the mental garbage and simply obeys, it all gets much easier. Your thoughts?
A: I’ve never liked easy. I don’t think I ever could just “simply” obey, regardless of the consequences. I like to know why, and how much, and where, and what for, and how, and who, and… well, you get the picture. I can’t just serve blindly.
Q: Eating a diet is premium. What vitamins do you take?
A: None. I eat a very nutritious diet that I’ve never had to supplement with vitamins.
Q: What are the qualities regarding yourself that you feel are the most important?
A: I’ve got a lot of talents, but my favorite one would be my ability to make others feel good. Let’s laugh and just have a fucking good time.
Shenanigans, you are simply a delight. Thank you.