Sometimes I get stuck in the mundane and schedule of daily life.  I notice I feel dull, opressed by an unknown thing, and I am constantly thinking about bills.

This is not my life.

So, I grab one of my favorite stories on vcr or dvd and start playing it or I grab a favorite book.  I revisit my friends in their story.  I remember back to how I used to watch tv as a child.  

Somehow when I was a child even if I had been read a story 100 times, when it was read to me, it was interesting, I wanted to know how my friends were, how their story went and how it turned out.  I was attentive, listening, focused.  It was as if the story might change if I didn’t visit them regularly.  Their story might go stepping off in another direction.  I had to make sure.  It was the same for my favorite tv shows.  It never mattered if it was a rerun. (We didn’t have pre-recorded things to play on demand.)

At that time I was excited to wake up, greet the day, experience my new adventure.   A new day was never boring or something I found mundane.

That is my life.  Excited.  Life is a wonder.  You never know what will happen next.  

You play hard.  I play hard. I engage in everything I do with passion.  I’m fully in.  Creating a make-believe in this state is totally real at the time.  I was really looking for the Indians (cowboys) or the Navy (pirates), they were truly coming to get me and I had to escape, survive, catch them, out fox them, etc.

Creating my real life isn’t any different, not when I am engaged, not when I am in this moment with the universe.

I feel light, happy in this state.

That is amusing because Peter and Tink always tell you, you need a happy thought to fly.